Bah, still can't find my brown journal; I would've wrote a lot in it =P Anyway, a lot's happened in just a month. Mom went through surgery, she had tumors along her uterus wall. Not to mention I found a sist in a not-so-nice area, so I need to get that removed/drained. I also went to my very first club! I went to City Club with Jason, Toni, and Chris, and it was flat out amazing! There's definately a lot more, but I've been busy and I need to work on more of my portfolio stuff =)

I <3 Jason so much.

This weekend was...interesting? Not in a bad way though lol. Brandon was supposed to get married but the wedding was called off, so I got Jason all to myself for the weekend. It felt amazing! I love sleeping next to the man I love, it's like a natural high =) We even cooked/ate an exotic dinner on saturday; we had swordfish and kangaroo (both quite yummy). Then on Sunday we went to the Russel Bazzar, I got a really really REALLY pretty dress that was 25 bucks even (Jason got it for me as part 1 of my birthday present). I'll post a picture up here once I take one, I think it's my favorite dress now lol. And then I bought myself a game called Contact for the DS; it's fucking AMAZING!

Today my family celebrated my birthday since I have to work tomorrow; Dad cooked a really nice dinner and I had a really good cake and ice cream set-up lol. And best of all....Dad's GIVING me the Taurus!!! We're going to go to secretary of state on wednsday to make it official, the car'll be in my name.  Though it needs some fixing up which is fine; I'll use the money I had set aside to buy a car for maitinence. I wonder what Jason's getting me for part 2 of my birthday present...He spoils me so much =) This weekend was amazing, I wish it didn't end =P Oh! And dad even put a better TV and computer in my room; they're not new, but they're loads better than my previous ones. And this keyboard is amazing =D Well, I should get ready for bed, got another long day ahead of me tomorrow.

<3 you so so very Godamn much baby.

A shit-ton's happened since last post. On May sixth, Jason's grandpa passed. It really sucked, I liked his grandpa a lot and really wanted him to be there when me and Jason get married eventually. I feel bad for his family, his grandma is so sweet and now she's all alone, I wish there was more I could do for him and his family. His mom hasn't had even an hour to herself since this all happened, so she's been bottling up her grieving time =( And I Jason is so emotionally exhausted he's getting physically exhausted; I want to make everything better, and yet I know I can't. So I'll just stand by his side and help in any way possible =)

Aside from that, school ended the 13th; so far I have a solid A in Basic Drawing 1, and A-'s in Geography and Astronomy; I'm just waiting for my English grade now. I've been working my ass off lately, luckily I still have two days off a week; it would just be nice if one of those days were a weekend day =.= I'm gonna try applying at Sams club today and then set up an appointment with CCS tomorrow. Bah, I wish Jason could get off work early =P lol. Oh well, maybe I'll draw or something =)

NO MORE SCHOOL! Woooooooooo =D

I love you baby =)

It's been a decent amount of time since I've posted last! It's been a crazy couple of weeks though so no one can really blame me. I finally pulled my first all-nighter! I did not enjoy it (=.=) lol damn english paper; it was due last monday so I didn't get any sleep thursday/wednseday. My half brother and his two children were baptized last saturday and I have to say it was a lot of fun! Granted a three hour mass was kinda long, but I enjoyed it. That sunday was really nice though, first one I've had off in awhile (yay easter!). I went over to Jasons and we went and saw Monsters Vs Aliens, it was a pretty cute movie =). Then we went and drove around since it was too cold to walk, and we watched a few shows at home and...well...I got the pounding of my life needless to say lmao. I have today off (woohoo!) so I'm going to go over there early-ish and wait for him to get home, prolly clean the house a little. Tomorrow me, Toni, and him are all going to the DIA (school trip for me and toni, jason's gonna make sure we don't get lost). Sucks though, I gotta work tomorrow and very possibly sunday =/ Oh well, at least this coming tuesday (21st) is my last day at subway. Thank God! I'm so sick of all the stupid fucking bullshit there, not that hungry howies is much better, but at least I'll be getting more hours.Well I'm gonna get started on some homework then head over to my love's, so I'll try and keep everyone updated.

<3 you so much Jason

Entering a quick journal before work. After my shut-down I feel a lot better. Granted it took me about a week for me to recharge but I feel back to normal. I'm trying to ween myself down from pop, not easy. But I've been eating a lot more fruit and today I feel really focused and productive. Yesterday was just flat out wonderful. No particular reason; I was with my baby at night, he cooked the most delicious dinner lol, and we watched lie to me then just layed down in each other's arms. He even wore his necklace and cleaned! It was just a really fucking good day, I can't wait 'till sunday; I won't see him today or tomorrow, haha two whole days seems so long. Got a lot done on my homework, I need to finish up one paper tonight then I'll get a head start on the other one tomorrow. But I gotta go get ready for work so I'll talk to ya'all later =P

<3 you so fucking much baby.